It’s sort of funny trying to watch movies that enact slow motion during intense or dramatic action scenes. This glorious music plays in the background while the main character makes all kinds of weird faces while his or her clothes slowly flap around in the breeze. But sometimes my life kind of feels that way when I have realizations of activity around me, good or bad.
When the bad ones happen I like to pretend they aren’t or I sort of ‘hum’ loudly in my head. And I don’t mean hum as in a charming little tune. It’s more like my mind is so loud at that moment because it wants to tune out what’s happening that I completely miss what’s going on around me. A blank out if you will sort of chosen by my head when it sees or hears things it doesn’t like. Thanks mind!
But today I experienced what I suppose I shall call a good one. It wasn’t GOOD necessarily, but it certainly wasn’t bad. So we’ll definitely go with good. My brother’s birthday was on the 17th and so as per usual the entire family gathered at my parents’ house for a huge feast (and no who-roast-beast, sorry). It came complete with cake and ice cream eating and presents for the lucky man who lived to see another day. We were all sitting around him and it was a pretty good turnout. The total headcount was around 14 people. So in the midst of singing happy birthday to him time sort of slowed down for me. I was in a moment of realization looking around at my family reflecting on how funny it was. And I don’t mean funny in a ‘ha-ha’ way. Just sort of interesting that a group of people would gather together on a chilly day in a fire-warmed house for a big turkey dinner. And to add the cherry on top they were all singing VERY off-key (also their own renditions) to the Happy Birthday song. I think my little cousin said his name was Spongebob in the song while my uncle called him a smelly monkey. It was like an odd comfort. I didn’t feel totally connected with them, but it felt right to be there. The food was delicious, the company was good, and everyone seemed relatively happy with their current standing in life. Sometimes it’s nice refreshing bits like this that add normalcy to my life. Bad things seemingly pop up all the time, but it may just be that they are far more noticeable.
I’m going to enjoy my full belly the remainder of the night and muse on thinking of everyone’s mouths opening in weird ways in slow motion while singing Happy Birthday.
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